Sunday, October 27, 2013

Nerves... body is riddled with them. I know the statistics, and I do have a good feeling I will pass the driver's test, but what if I don't? There's just so much I can't know. What if I get a difficult route? What if my nerves take over and I make too many mistakes? What if someone else makes a mistake on the road and I don't respond right? What if they ask me something and I blank out? Gaahh!

I feel ya, kid.

Monday, October 21, 2013

I'm Not Gone

I feel bad for not writing here in a long time. It's not that I've been too busy, it's the opposite, if anything. Everything is standing still. I find myself forgetting what month it is.
This week will be different, though. I have several appointments and next monday, I have my driver's test. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about it. After I found out the date, my dad said he wouldn't tell anyone, which I didn't even think about, but I felt better knowing that. It would be so much pressure to pass if everyone were to know whether I passed or not that day.

I'm trying to think back to what I've done since last time, it really makes me think, what am I doing with my life? I got Netflix, which explains a lot. Mainly, I have spent my nights(and some days) on that and Youtube. A few days ago I found out I couldn't trust anything on Netflix, I totally misjudged a movie and ended up being fully creeped out. The movie was called Megan is Missing, and I thought it would be interesting/so bad it's funny, which it was, in the first part. Watching someone in close-up talk to the camera was so awkward, and I thought the teenagers' world was unrealistic, but maybe that's because I grew up in a much smaller town/country(I also watched Bully, which was heartbreaking, but I didn't recognize anything from my school experience, even though I was bullied).
Then with no real warning what-so-ever, the movie takes an ugly turn.

(Totally unrelated, but this picture makes me smile)

Spoiler alert: Pictures of the missing girl being tortured, dungeons and rape. Then the movie literally ends with ten minutes of a guy digging a grave while she begs for her life.
What the fuck, Netflix? I was so shocked, I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Not rated, no warning, no nothing. I feel like I have to do a background search on anything I find on Netflix now.